I became a writer because my mind is a vortex of thoughts and in order to think straight I let them flow onto paper.

I became a writer because words will never judge me.

I became a writer because it allows me to be vulnerable.

An apology without changed behavior is just a bunch of words you put together to make yourself feel better for disappointing someone.

All I ask is that you try

What do you do when music is no longer therapy? When pain is the only thing you see. And feel. And you don’t know how to deal.

When I realized that I felt like I needed you I started to push you away. It’s not because I don’t want to be close its just that I don’t know how to handle needing you and you don’t know how to handle being needed. So I started pushing you away. You just saw it as me being a butt head or being mean at the wrong time for you. In reality I needed to push you away so I didn’t have to watch you walk away. Id much rather hurt myself than allow you to hurt me because self-inflicted pain I can bare but for you to hurt me would make me question everything I ever knew and that’s not something I can do.

I wasn’t clingy until you showed me the attention I never knew I wanted or needed.

My generation has been labeled as the Netflix & chill generation. We are seen as emotionless casual sex having ingrates. But I don’t think that is our problem. I think that we are afraid to be vulnerable with one another and we don’t communicate. We figure out what we want but don’t tell our S.O’s and complain about it to our friends. We want change but don’t initiate it. If your significant other doesn’t match what you want/need then why are you with them just wasting time. People change when they feel like it is worth it but if you don’t make your needs known then you’ll be unsatisfied and confused as to why your s.o. Can’t figure it out.